Even Teachers knew we are Organic Robots that’s programmable





I got punished at school sometimes through doing certain things, I have a specific memory of speaking back at the teacher, not accepting and allowing her behaviour towards us as the students, which I took as diminishing us, seeing us as less, and I said something back, the teacher didn’t like it, and she reacted badly towards what I did.

As punishment, the teacher instructed me to write down on paper with a pen 100 times “to speak back to a teacher is wrong” and as I write it I had to speak it LOUD and CLEAR – and only once I completed writing that out 100 times and speaking it out loud and clear could I leave the classroom.

I eventually wrote out all 100 lines as I wanted to get out of the class, and to not be in the presence of this teacher. In my mind I laughed at the punishment, I thought it was stupid and useless, I thought this will not change anything within me, But, afterwards there was a scar within me, I tried to avoid it, but it was there, I could not pinpoint it as to what it was or remove it, but from that day I have not spoken up to a teacher in the way I did before, I had more fear, I had more self-judgment, I felt insecure to speak to people that has titles of “authority “and facing the consequences, I had a massive judgement within me of it being WRONG to speak back at someone, speaking up and being heard especially if they are seen as authority within me.

So, this worked? Even when I believed and thought it didn’t, that I was too strong for it to have any effect, yet, sitting there for a while writing out that sentence 100 times with my hand cramping and my brain hurting and my voice getting dry from saying it out loud and clear 100 times it had an effect.

Did the teacher know that it would work? Was the teacher aware of what she was doing to me? Did the teacher do this knowing how to program children? And that we are programmable and that’s how it is done?

I mean, since my process with Desteni, the key to deprogramming ourselves and to change and stand as LIFE is through writing, through applying self-forgiveness and then adding self-corrective statements as our living/correction, and within thus breathe and walk within practically applying ourselves daily, stopping the mind, thoughts and feelings and emotions.

At Desteni, this is done because we understand and see that we are programmable, and thus our nature can change, and thus we are able to create ourselves with the right tools, so here comes a teacher that Believes in God and that God is the creator of all things and that god is divine and all powerful and that free will exists and all that, yet this very same person used this technique on me that defies everything they believe in and it worked.

So – I can now also say that writing and speaking words truly is the key, now see and understand the power of the tools when it is applied in self-forgiveness, and we write and write and write in self-forgiveness and creating ourselves as LIVING words, as the living word as LIFE, if only a small moment of writing something out 100 times and speaking it loud and clear could have such an effect on me for a life-time, then now we can see how applying the tools of Desteni and how it is used as suggested DOES in fact have an effect, if we like it or not. It is a matter of consistency and to do it 100 times or more an every single point within ourselves or more till it is done.

This brought me to a very interesting statement that Jesus said in the bible about forgiveness, that we must forgive 70 times 7 a day, each and every day, which is 490 times of forgiveness a day, and this is and was even understood by Jesus and what we must apply more than 2000 years ago. No one has or is living this, not to mention for ourselves, not to mention on a daily basis, now you might ask, what am I going to forgive every day that much? Well, it is going to be yourself, your every thought, feeling or emotion, it is going to be YOU forgiving existence as yourself, thus all that is here to stand as life, one and equal, to drop all knowledge and information as the mind as consciousness as the false Idol/god, and to unveil what is here to be able to pass through the eye of the needle.

I will for myself as a test do here what I have done in that classroom, for myself, to forgive myself 100 times for one thing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
(Middle lower back pain, to the right, muscle) (Shoulder pain, right side, and front, down to the elbow and into the forearm, muscle pain with bone tension)
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
(Thoughts popping up, unconscious mind, agitation from others in my environment, projection, as I am getting agitated as I judge what the others are going through isn’t directed as I would have directed it)
(my body getting tense, as I feel I am wasting time, nothing is happening, nothing magical = mind protection mechanism, where the mind is addictive to experiences and thus not not feeling anything, and thus if the mind isn’t experiencing anything then it must mean nothing is happening, yet the physical is darkness, still, quiet, here)
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
(left hand is warming up, while right hand is still cold, my left hand is specifically heating up from the small finger, where the hear is flowing up until the ring finger, then gradual heat is flowing all over my hand but not as warm as the small and ring finger, thus flowing is happening within those two areas)
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that separation exists.
(tension all over my body now, as TIME has shown its face and thus I started rushing, as I am now running out of time to apply myself within this, the tension begins in the back, runs into my shoulders at the back and then restricts and tense up my entire chest area all the way down to my sixpack, thus the back tensing upwards and the front tensing as in cramping inwards)
Interesting.

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